{"id":245,"date":"2009-03-30T18:35:00","date_gmt":"2009-03-30T18:35:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing2\/?p=245"},"modified":"2009-03-30T18:35:00","modified_gmt":"2009-03-30T18:35:00","slug":"for-my-birthday","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/2009\/03\/for-my-birthday.html","title":{"rendered":"For my birthday"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There&#8217;s a point during a long run&#8211;somewhere around six miles&#8211;when my mind clears.  The angry din of competing stresses silences, the red haze of self-righteous indignation dissipates, and my shoulders drop in surrender to the tranquility of the moment.  My vision widens beyond the terrain immediately beneath my feet.  Suddenly, I&#8217;m surrounded by peace and beauty.  Suddenly, <i>all that<\/i> seems inconsequential compared to <i>all this<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>People asked what I was doing for my birthday.  If I was feeling flippant, I told them laundry, which is what I was doing Sunday evening.  But more completely, I spent a weekend doing everything I love.  On Friday my best friend Sheila went the extra mile to get us a table at PF Changs and bought me Cosmopolitans and lettuce wraps.  On Saturday Miriam took me to my favorite Mexican restaurant after a lovely day of climbing moderates at the Gunks.  And on Sunday I cleared my head of whatever else ailed me with a fourteen mile run in the rain, just me and a lot of peace and quiet.  Interspersed were other tidings of love from other people who love me.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been trying to be a good Buddhist for a few years now and sometime I feel like I&#8217;m no farther down the path to enlightenment than when I started, but there are times&#8211;when I climb, when I run&#8211;when I am wholly in the moment, times when I have &#8220;quiet mind.&#8221;  During the days when fear was overwhelming my climbing experience, I started using a mantra to quell negative self-talk: &#8220;I&#8217;m strong, I&#8217;m confident, and my gear is good.&#8221;  I think a mantra gives you quiet mind, not because you believe what you&#8217;re saying necessarily, but because you lull yourself to peace through repetition.  <\/p>\n<p>Lately I&#8217;ve learned a new mantra for those times when self-pitying, wishing thoughts are flooding my brain and I can&#8217;t work them out by climbing or running.  The new mantra is:  &#8220;I&#8217;m lucky, I&#8217;m loved, and my life will go on.&#8221;  Although a mantra works whether you believe in it or not, mine was easy to believe for my birthday.<\/p>\n<p>All led by me:<br \/>Betty P1 &#038; P2, 5.3<br \/>Classic &#038; P2 of Jackie, 5.7<br \/>City Lights P1, 5.7<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There&#8217;s a point during a long run&#8211;somewhere around six miles&#8211;when my mind clears. The angry din of competing stresses silences, the red haze of self-righteous indignation dissipates, and my shoulders drop in surrender to the tranquility of the moment. My vision widens beyond the terrain immediately beneath my feet. Suddenly, I&#8217;m surrounded by peace and&#8230;  <a class=\"excerpt-read-more\" href=\"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/2009\/03\/for-my-birthday.html\" title=\"ReadFor my birthday\">Read more &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9,6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-245","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-gunks","category-running"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/245","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=245"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/245\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=245"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=245"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dawnalguard.com\/climbing\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=245"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}